If I left the world today

If I left the world today I would want to share the last threads of my fibers with you.  Praying that they resonate with at least one or two.  We often give up the opportunity to speak our minds because of how it might affect others but if we were leaving this earth today,  would it even matter?  Well,  just in case,  here are my sentiments: Learn to love as God has directed us to,  anytime I chose to love or even live contrary to his word,  it never worked out.  Stop fooling yourselves,  no one is perfect, but that does not remove the need to strive for perfection.  Our imperfections should drive us to do better,  not serve as a crutch for complacency.  Acceptance – it is the gateway for rebuilding.  You can not rebuild or even correct something that you refuse to admit is broken.  We fear rejection and when we admit our faults the fear that we will be rejected based on those faults are overwhelming, but please understand that anyone who truly loves you and was sent to you by God is there to rebuild with you,  not reject you.  So accept their exit or absence as God’s removal from your life and NOT their rejection of you. 

Spend some time truly learning about sacrifice. Some of us pretend to have sacrificed but have no clue what it is.  To me, sacrifice is giving up something or someone that takes us beyond the extent of comfort. To be perfectly clear,  when I mention sacrifice,  it is a conversation that comes directly from first hand giving up my last morsel of food, not for one meal,  but for days at a time, until my body succumbed to the effects of starvation.  It was then and only then,  when my head was hurting,  my mouth was dry,  my stomach and body were cramping,  and I lacked the strength to stand, did I know what real sacrifice meant. Not every situation in life will require that level of sacrifice and that is ok,  but let’s call that what it is – simply doing what must be done. 

Be true to what is right.  Do not  confuse love or loyalty with doing the right thing.  You can love yourself,  your partner and anyone you enter into a relationship, but doing the wrong thing in the name of love is wrong,  and,  in my opinion,  not love at all. Similarly,  do not settle or accept less than the right thing from your loved ones.  I have been fooled in the past about this one.  You can love someone despite their flaws but if you love them you will not leave them to their sinfully syndicated flaws.  Pray for them,  forgive them,  and help them overcome.

I have lived a life in the sum of 40 years but often because I chose to ignore God’s messages the days of misery passed like 40 years a piece.  I have no more time for excuses,  I have no more time for avoidance,  I have no more time for selfish sin,  I have no more time for complacency,  I have no more time to surrender to failure,  I simply have no more time for I leave this earth today…



Author: Downnotout1

Taneshia Brown, a native of New Mexico was born the second child of Howard and Fannie Baker. She was raised by both parents in a loving home with two other sisters. Although as a child she dreamed of becoming a lawyer, life would bring her to another passion – writing. This passion is demonstrated in her first book, “My Journey, His Purpose”. In "My Journey, His Purpose," the author relives both painful and difficult memories to unearth the power of God’s power and purpose. She began writing in high school a part of a post traumatic therapeutic regimen. As a rape victim, single mother, and domestic violence survivor, she fought through the low places in life to acquire several college degrees. She later sharpened her writing skills while blogging for The Examiner, and Jambalaya Magazine. The author has continued to rise from the ashes under the cover of God to volunteer, guest speak, start a non-profit organization, and now write her own memoirs in order to reach and teach others who have found themselves in similar circumstances. Her journey has taken her from a broken, battered, and lost shadow to a fulfilled, renewed woman, wife, mother, and survivor. Her unique voice speaks volumes to tragedy and triumph. Now she is here to blog about life and its intricacies.

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